"are you inside your sane!?!"
paraphrasing...
"sane means you are of sound mine and can therefore relate to the things around you (reality makes sense (for the most part) and you can relate to it) ... when you are insane, you are basically inside your mind (in your own little world) where everything make sense to you, but not to anyone living in reality."
when insane you can not think clearly in a way the relates to reality. You see things the way you want to see them, not the way they are...
when you are inlove most people tend to see the other person for who they want them to be and not who they are in reality. That makes it much harder after marriage when you see for your self reality and your romantic image is shattered. I think most people are more inlove with the ideal of being inlove than actually wanting a meaningful, deep, friendship that can last alife time.
i don't know if i am cut out for it myself... i do know i do not like being 'inlove' i end up inside my sane and i drive myself crazy!
this is the end of my rambling...
... this blog entry inspried by Brain and Jen, ;o)
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Monday, June 19, 2006
... the blessing continue to pour out
life just continues to get better and better...
i spent sat night with jess, amazing! Saturday i spent helping my dad stain the deck, it was nice spending time with him doing something productive. We don't do much together these days. finding these to bond over are few and far between, so i'll take what i can get. I really did have a lot of fun though. Genna and I met some FUELers at the point sat. night and hung out, it was good sister time. Sunday we all just hung out at home and talked! no joke, we actually enjoyed our time as a family and talked and listened and enjoyed it!!!! needless to say we all went our own way at the end of the day... but it was nice while it lasted, a family focused wkend.
work was a little stressful, but it happens... i went to the gym and worked some of that off... went to Jareds bible study (great job, bro!) he is an amazing man.
And I got to talk to Chris Basinger!!!! He is SO amazing, i love that guy so much! *smile*
And no joke, jen klunk is coming to spend the night tomorrow, i can not wait!!!! i love her and have not seen her in like 2 years!!!!! yay!
i am prob the happiest person on earth right now! *smile*
Thank you for pour down your blessings... its more than i deserve, but i'll take what you give me... ;o) I love you!
i spent sat night with jess, amazing! Saturday i spent helping my dad stain the deck, it was nice spending time with him doing something productive. We don't do much together these days. finding these to bond over are few and far between, so i'll take what i can get. I really did have a lot of fun though. Genna and I met some FUELers at the point sat. night and hung out, it was good sister time. Sunday we all just hung out at home and talked! no joke, we actually enjoyed our time as a family and talked and listened and enjoyed it!!!! needless to say we all went our own way at the end of the day... but it was nice while it lasted, a family focused wkend.
work was a little stressful, but it happens... i went to the gym and worked some of that off... went to Jareds bible study (great job, bro!) he is an amazing man.
And I got to talk to Chris Basinger!!!! He is SO amazing, i love that guy so much! *smile*
And no joke, jen klunk is coming to spend the night tomorrow, i can not wait!!!! i love her and have not seen her in like 2 years!!!!! yay!
i am prob the happiest person on earth right now! *smile*
Thank you for pour down your blessings... its more than i deserve, but i'll take what you give me... ;o) I love you!
Saturday, June 17, 2006
the never ending battle
i have been thinking a lot lately about how everything relates to everything else... its quite fascinating. I was helping my dad stain the deck and we were talking. at one point he was explaining how frustrated he was that this (staining the deck) was a never ending battle, every year or 2 years it has to be done. And you just can go out and stain, you have to scrub the deck and clean out all the little cracks, than you have to use deck cleaner, wait for that to dry and then you can stain the deck. our deck is pretty big... it took 3 of us working together a little over 2 hrs! so it was a lot of work, took mot of the day.
Anyway, the comment made me think of other aspects of life and how we have to keep up with them every year/month/day/hour/minute... life itself is a never ending battle. WE have bills to pay, clothes to clean, food to prepare... there is an endless cycle of things we do, some things we just get used to others we view as hinderances.
I think the most imortant battle though is one that is most over looked, and that would be the battle for your love. i believe most people do not know what love really means. there are advertisements telling people, there are strangers in bars telling people, there are abusive parents/husbands/wives tell people their version of what love is. this world is so crazy and mixed up, a lot of people truely do not know real God love. they do no undestand the importance of caring for others and loving God. Because they have never been shown. I think that falls on us Jesus lovers, true Christ followers to ooze Christs love to everyone in the world around us.
Wow, i really got off track here... i was talking about battles... the battle for ones soul is minute by minute, second by second fight for ones affections and focus. Who is going to win? well here is what an old indian chief once said about the subject:
"It's like having two dogs living in you, one good pulling me toward God and one bad pulling me away from God, continuously fighting each other.
Which dog wins the fight?
Old Indian Chief: Whichever one you feed the most.
*Which dog are you feeding?
Anyway, the comment made me think of other aspects of life and how we have to keep up with them every year/month/day/hour/minute... life itself is a never ending battle. WE have bills to pay, clothes to clean, food to prepare... there is an endless cycle of things we do, some things we just get used to others we view as hinderances.
I think the most imortant battle though is one that is most over looked, and that would be the battle for your love. i believe most people do not know what love really means. there are advertisements telling people, there are strangers in bars telling people, there are abusive parents/husbands/wives tell people their version of what love is. this world is so crazy and mixed up, a lot of people truely do not know real God love. they do no undestand the importance of caring for others and loving God. Because they have never been shown. I think that falls on us Jesus lovers, true Christ followers to ooze Christs love to everyone in the world around us.
Wow, i really got off track here... i was talking about battles... the battle for ones soul is minute by minute, second by second fight for ones affections and focus. Who is going to win? well here is what an old indian chief once said about the subject:
"It's like having two dogs living in you, one good pulling me toward God and one bad pulling me away from God, continuously fighting each other.
Which dog wins the fight?
Old Indian Chief: Whichever one you feed the most.
*Which dog are you feeding?
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
the best wk EVER!!!!
it all started with me visiting shell on sat. she was in the hospital, but i got to see her and that made me smile. sunday i went out to lunch with some of the RCC peeps and then spent the remainder of the day with jess ;o) we just hung out at the park. I love the park.
monday i went to work @ 8 am (yuck) but got out @ 4:30 pm (super yay!) and got a call (randomly) from none other than Julie Draper (no lie!) She needed a place to crash, so her and I stayed at my grams (don't ask). we met greg and niki down at the water fron for about an hour and hung out... introduced greg and niki to the creamery and talked a lot. I love those guys and now they are living in hell (aka swickley/pittsburgh) which makes me so happy!
they had me over for dinner after work. niki makes the BEST burgers EVER!!!! i had such a fun time hanging out. I am so glad they are here. although their do bit my nose off! (j/k) its cute but dangerous.... did i mention how excited i am that they are here!
today i won $100! yes way! i am so excited... how to spend, hm... prob on gas for road trips! yay!
if you couldn't tell i am supper happy. i tutored dr. Wang to day and he took me out to dinner...chinese! he was real impressed with how well i could use chop sticks. o yeah!
and then... patrick called! and we talked for about 2 hrs... i love that boy.
and tomorrow i have fuel... i think and then friday hangin out with jess again ;o)
and from there who knows?!?!?!
God has blessed me SO much this wk it is amazing! i am so happy i could burst. i do not deserve all this... but i am grateful for it.
your thoughts are higher than mine
your love is stronger than mine
this is no sacrifce
heres my life
thank you!
monday i went to work @ 8 am (yuck) but got out @ 4:30 pm (super yay!) and got a call (randomly) from none other than Julie Draper (no lie!) She needed a place to crash, so her and I stayed at my grams (don't ask). we met greg and niki down at the water fron for about an hour and hung out... introduced greg and niki to the creamery and talked a lot. I love those guys and now they are living in hell (aka swickley/pittsburgh) which makes me so happy!
they had me over for dinner after work. niki makes the BEST burgers EVER!!!! i had such a fun time hanging out. I am so glad they are here. although their do bit my nose off! (j/k) its cute but dangerous.... did i mention how excited i am that they are here!
today i won $100! yes way! i am so excited... how to spend, hm... prob on gas for road trips! yay!
if you couldn't tell i am supper happy. i tutored dr. Wang to day and he took me out to dinner...chinese! he was real impressed with how well i could use chop sticks. o yeah!
and then... patrick called! and we talked for about 2 hrs... i love that boy.
and tomorrow i have fuel... i think and then friday hangin out with jess again ;o)
and from there who knows?!?!?!
God has blessed me SO much this wk it is amazing! i am so happy i could burst. i do not deserve all this... but i am grateful for it.
your thoughts are higher than mine
your love is stronger than mine
this is no sacrifce
heres my life
thank you!
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
interesting article... thanks GG
+++++++++++++Positive News Weekly Story++++++++++++++
Enjoy The Coffee
A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to Visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into Complaints about stress in work and life.
Offering his guests coffee, the Professor went to the kitchen and returned With a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, Glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - Telling them to help themselves to the coffee.
When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said:
"If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving Behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal for you to want Only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and Stress.
What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously Went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups.
Now consider this: Life is the coffee, and the jobs, money and position In society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, And do not change the quality of Life.
Some times, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the Coffee God has provided."
So, don't let the cups drive you... Enjoy the coffee instead.
~~~~~~~~~~~
LOVE/RELATIONSHIPS:
I don't know the key to success, but the key To failure is trying to please everybody. --Bill Cosby
LEADERSHIP/SUCCESS:
Live as if you were to die tomorrow Learn as if you were to live forever--Mahatma Gandhi
MOTIVATION/INSPIRATION:
The older I get, the less I pay attention To what people say or think or hope. I notice what they do,How they Live,And what they work for.--Robert Fulghum "Words I Wish I Wrote"
Enjoy The Coffee
A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to Visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into Complaints about stress in work and life.
Offering his guests coffee, the Professor went to the kitchen and returned With a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, Glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - Telling them to help themselves to the coffee.
When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said:
"If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving Behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal for you to want Only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and Stress.
What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously Went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups.
Now consider this: Life is the coffee, and the jobs, money and position In society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, And do not change the quality of Life.
Some times, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the Coffee God has provided."
So, don't let the cups drive you... Enjoy the coffee instead.
~~~~~~~~~~~
LOVE/RELATIONSHIPS:
I don't know the key to success, but the key To failure is trying to please everybody. --Bill Cosby
LEADERSHIP/SUCCESS:
Live as if you were to die tomorrow Learn as if you were to live forever--Mahatma Gandhi
MOTIVATION/INSPIRATION:
The older I get, the less I pay attention To what people say or think or hope. I notice what they do,How they Live,And what they work for.--Robert Fulghum "Words I Wish I Wrote"