"I Just Called To Say I Love You"

No New Year's Day to celebrate

No chocolate covered candy hearts to give away

No first of spring

No song to sing

In fact here's just another ordinary day

No April rain

No flowers bloom

No wedding Saturday within the month of June

But what it is, is something true

Made up of these three words that I must say to you

I just called to say I love you

I just called to say how much I care

I just called to say I love you

And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

No summer's high

No warm July

No harvest moon to light one tender August night

No autumn breeze

No falling leaves

Not even time for birds to fly to southern skies

No Libra sun

No Halloween

No giving thanks to all the Christmas joy you bring

But what it is, though old so new

To fill your heart like no three words could ever do

I just called to say I love you

I just called to say how much I care, I do

I just called to say I love you

And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

I just called to say I love you

I just called to say how much I care, I do

I just called to say I love you

And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,of my heart

I just called to say I love you

I just called to say how much I care, I do

I just called to say I love you

And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,

baby of my heart

what does this song make you thing of... really, the first thing that comes to mind?

to me it is GG, my grandmother. she used to sing this to us all the time growing up. didn't know it was a 'real' song til i was 13. so i think of when i was young and times i had with her. its a fun song too i think... ok, that's all for today.

Just A Closer Walk With Thee

(As released by Patsy Cline, February 10, 1965)

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I am weak but Thou art strong

Jesus keep me from all wrong

I'll be satisfied as long

As I walk, let me walk close to Thee

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Just a closer walk with Thee

Grant it, Jesus, is my plea

Daily walking close to Thee

Let it be, dear Lord, let it be

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When my feeble life is o'er

Time for me shall be no more

Guide me gently, safely o'er

To Thy kingdom’s shore, to Thy shore

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When life's sun sinks in the west

Lord, may I have done my best

May I find sweet peace and rest

In that happy home of the blessed

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Just a closer walk with Thee

Grant it, Jesus, is my plea

Daily walking close to Thee

Let it be, dear Lord, let it be

refocused & refreshed

I feel very overwhelmed by the craziness of life. some people can be too demanding, nothing I do is right, nothing I say is right... good thing I have God or I would be really depressed. He loves me as I am, I do not have to be perfect.
You know the problem with being perfect is that everybody has a different perspective on what perfect is, therefore no one can ever truly be perfect in this world. It can get real frustrating if you are one of those perfectionist types, good thing I'm not! I am hopelessly flawed and I am o.k. with that fact.

I enjoy not being perfect, life is more interesting that way. I enjoy learning and growing from all the experiences of life... I don't think I would like being perfect bc then there would be no where to go, no way to improve, no crazy mistakes that make good stories. that reminds me of a brad paisley song...

little moments

Well I'll never forget the first time that I heard

That pretty mouth say that dirty word

And I can't even remember now what she backed my truck into

But she covered her mouth and her face got red And she just looked so darn cute

That I couldn't even act like I was mad

Yeah I live for little moments like that

Well that's just like last year on my birthday

She lost all track of time and burnt the cake

And every smoke detector in the house was goin' off

And she was just about to cry until I took her in my arms

And I tried not to let her see me laugh

Yeah I live for little moments like that

I know she's not perfect but she tries so hard for me

And I thank God that she isn't 'cause how boring would that be

It's the little imperfections it's the sudden change in plans

When she misreads the directions and we're lost but holdin' hands

Yeah I live for little moments like that

When she's layin' on my shoulder on the sofa in the dark

And about the time she falls asleep so does my right arm

And I want so bad to move it 'cause it's tinglin' and it's numb

But she looks so much like an angel that I don't wanna wake her up

Yeah I live for little moments

When she steals my heart again and doesn't even know it

Yeah I live for little moments like that

That song makes me smile...

I mess up all the time, but I use those situations to improve myself. These are some questions I ask my self in hard situations... What can I learn from this? How can I apply what I am learning to my life? Is what I am gaining from this helpful to better myself and better serve others? What am I learning about myself through this situation? Such as, how I handle certain situation, how I act, and react to different situations. Trying to become closer to what Christ would have me be as I learn from these situations. Continuing to pray and ask God to mold me through every circumstance, the good as well as the bad. I strongly believe everything happens for a reason, and every situation and interaction is connected. How I handle each situation is a test of my character, my love and servitude towards others and my dependence/relationship with God.

I need to practice focusing more on Gods purpose and less on the many individual issues in my life. I need to spend more time with God, and learn to listen better to Him. I need to get more involved in my church and community to serve others and share Gods love. I need a set list of goals that will help keep me focused and dependent on God. I am starting this year freash (I still tend to think in school years).

I am ready to hit the ground running... new year, new plans, new life...

Jesus,

this is no sacrifice

here's my life

a look inside

i have realized this summer that i am naturally introverted. most people know me as outgoing. but i have realized the extroverted and outgoing are two separate things... you can be introverted and out going. i have to push myself when i am in large groups of people to be lively, i do better one on one or in small groups of people.

this picnic this past wkend (although it was fun) wore me out... i am still exhausted! 3 whole days later! But i am glad i had it, i got to see some people i had not gotten to see for a while. And while i do like smaller groups, i also enjoy bringing the people in my life together. I know some amazing people and so i want to spread the love. i think everyone had a fun time... and that's what matters most.

alright, well i am going back to my hole in the earth to continue to recover... ttyl

nautical nonsense

mostly just nonsense...

... (deep breath) ...

... the past few wks have been a bit tense for me, not sure why. i am having trouble putting my finger on any one thing... maybe its just a bunch of little things...

...i still view years in school years, instead of from jan to dec. i am excited to see what this year holds, so many changes. this time last year i was in china! hard to believe.

... i am very excited to be going to a concert on my birthday, again this year. Kyle and E-dogg and i am sure some other groups are preforming at clarion. I am so there!

... i am going back to school for massage which is extremely exciting for me.

... i have a few ideas on how to get more involved in the church i am going to... hoping to start up a young womans group. i have a heart to help women see the beauty inside themselves... i know i stuggle with it a great deal myself at times, but i know God could work through that weakness to shine on other women and help them. i just don't know how i am going to do that just yet. (Lord, i am leavin the how up to you)

... not much is happening in the next month... ryan is comin home from china!!! can't wait to talk with him! and i know i am getting old and all but i am excited to visit good 'ol clarion and meet the freshmen and spend time with the sr. class this year. it is really interesting to watch things change over the years. i it crazy to see the difference from my freshman year to the changes i already see in this up coming year.

...there is a prayer walk friday night and saturday morning and steve planned an off the floor event saturday during the day. i am not sure which i am going to, i had planned on the prayer walk so i could meet more people in the church, but i feel obligated to go to the off the floor thing... i guess we'll see what happens. there is a concert thing in oakmont saturday night as well. so my wkend is pretty full. and next wkend the fam is going to a cabin in the woods somewhere... that should be fun, 1st family vacation since 6th grade! and the saturday after that FUEL is going splunking!!! i am so excited! i have wandered around in caves before, but from what i can tell we are going off the beaten path and roaming the depths (13 stories down!) of the cave! i am excited, did i already say that?!?!
Plus Zach may come and splunk with us! I am excited to get to know him better, he seems like a fun guy.

... so i do have a few little things going on, but the next big thing i am looking forward to is my birthday! i do not usually do anything big, but i enjoy celebrating with a few close friends.

... lately i have felt very pressured... i am not sure why, but my muscles are very tense and i am very unfocused. i don't like the way it makes me feel, but i am not sure how to stop it...

...God has been teaching me some pretty intense stuff, for me atleast, so that may have something to do with it. I love how God works, most of the time.... its hard stuff and i am not sure how to explain it all, so for now we'll just leave it at that, if you would like to talk to me about it though you know where to find me.

... i am totally aware that life may not turn out the way i plan, not that i have much of a plan, but i have decided to make a list of things i would like to accomplish throughout my life... this should be interesting.

... if you couldn't already tell i am kind of scattered today i thought i would state that here. (check)

... i hope you are all having a wonderful summer! i would love to hang out with you if your up for it! still a little over a month to go!

alright well i am out... i have to finish up my papers for school.


P.S. WING NIGHT tues july 25th at the LUBE! be there!

hangin with jess

i am hangin with jess at her house... we are watching a movie (pride&prejudice). i thought i would take this time to update the blog.

the wedding last wk was fun. i got the chance to hang out with my out of town cousins. and once again i was asked to be photographer... i believe this is the third wedding i was asked to photograph. it was fun. the view of the city was amazing. however, it did get kind of crazy as the night went on... no comment.

i took my cousin from texas (patrick) and my aunt (diane) down to the point on the 4th. Pat had never been to the point before. We enjoyed the regatta and he got to see the fountain. it was a fun day. i enjoy hanging out with patrick when they are able to come visit. i am eager to visit them in texas, hopefully someday.

patrick came down to meet with me on thur. and came to bible study. it was nice to hang out with him and have him meet my friends.

friday i went to visit amber, we went to the park and talked about a great many things and played on the swingset... that was fun.

saturday i did not do much of anything, some cleaning and reading... just enjoying my time doing nothing. i am always on the go, it was nice to have a day where i did nothing.

sunday i saw the new pirates movie... not impressed... there was no ending. then i had dinner with kristi, that was nice and went home to clean some more....

.... that brings me to today! i am hanging out with jessi, the family is away so we are taking over the house. she needs to be 3 places at once 'india, america and subway'. so if any of you know how we can make that happen let me know.

i am looking forward to the wkend. my picnic is coming up. i do enjoy hosting gatherings of this sort. bringing people together is a favorite past time of mine. i do have a lot of cleaning and preparation before saturday, yet i am very busy in the evenings to come... not sure how i will get it all done... but it will get done.


... ... ... i have so many thoughts swimming around in my head... contradicting eachother, how can i know for certain which one is the right one? or maybe they are both right, just in different situations... i do believe for many things their is a black and a white, but there are many issues that are gray... bc everyone is different and has a different set of convictions. i long so deeply to be in Gods will, but there are not spacific directions in the bible for my life, so it is hard to know if i am going where i need to go... living each day by faith. one step at a time. i can not look too far into the future or my focus gets fuzzy and misplaced... i do not know what the future hold, all i know is what is should do... i need to draw closer to God everyday and walk with him and he will guide me. life can be very confusing... but that can make it exciting. standing firm on what i know and thinking over that which i am not sure of....
... sorry this is kind of a random entry. i am getting tired and the movie is coming to an end... so is this blog.

a summer of travel...

Jen is back in CA, but it was a supper fun wkend at the Richardsons. I love you jen! don't forget were going to ... ? well i forget, but next summer were havin another fun bash... can't wait!

Kristi is flying to philly, Las vegas and Germany!!!! she is going from homebody to woman of travel! I am excited for her, more stories to listen to, yay!

ryan called me tue. night! random, if i do say so myself... he is currently in china (so jealous!) and we were talking about some specifics. I love that kid, he is amazing. we talked for quite sometime, til he got to wherever it was he was driving to for his hockey game. It was nice to hear from him. I am excited to sit down with him when we get back and here all about his trip.

patrick just got back from wisconsin and will be traveling PA until he travels out of sate again at the end of summer to michigan. i'll get to see a few times before he leaves. I am excited to see what God will do in his life this next year... although i am a little sad to see him go.

Greg and Niki travel a lot across the state... ;o)

other people are in camps, summer school and other random happenings this summer...

as for me, i take my little road trips. this is not the summer for me to do much, but i am having a lot of fun.

*** i got a few skirts and some fun (cheap) jewlery, i think i am ready for the next phase in my life... i am ready for changes... and while i wait for those changes, i will be active in the things i am invoved with this summer... and encourage those who are doing BIG things this summer.

God is good all the time...
... i am so undeserving and yet am flooded with blessings.