job huntng is interesting. I hate it. I got offered a job to be the manager of a store for G&M Marketing Corp. (www.gandmmarketingcorp.com) I don't want to lock myself in somewhere. Especially if I don't know what i am getting myself into, its a BIG responsibility and it would lock me in for a long career. I am not looking for a career right now, i can see myself doing a great many things. Plus I am being told I shouldn't trust the company just because they are small. I get the feeling It is being hinted to me that I can't do it. what a way to build people up. Push them to do something, then when they finally reach the end smack 'em down and crush their self esteem. Not that I had much to begin with. (sigh) What am I to do with my life? I always imagined being married by now, maybe having a small side job till i had kids then being a full time house wife and getting involved in the PTA or being a girl scout troup leader, teaching sunday school and leading a small group for young women. That dream is in the can. There is no husband, boyfriend... potential dating circumstance at all in sight in the near future or in the long run. I feel beat down and deflated... all I want is a hug, some one to pray with... no one is around. gotta deal with it myself... as usual.
sorry this is a sort of depressing entry... i better cheer up b4, well i just better cheer up.
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