Who I am Hates who I've been

I have been so grouchy and negative lately and it has been driving me nuts. I hate being negative and I hate it when I am not smiling and making other people smile.
Pastor Bill said something today in church that was like a light bulb going off in my head. He said, "Christians are not happy unless they are serving God." That was it! What was I doing to serve God? not much. I want to get a job and serve Him in my job, I want to get in a church and serve Him in the church. I want to serve, and i have been missing out the past month and a half. I have been waiting, but not actively. I thought i was being active, but not really. I lack know how right now where I am. Its like i hit a wall and am left dazed and confused. I want to dig in with both my hands and love on Him like nothing else.
I had lunch after church with 3 beautiful, intellegent lovely ladies. We talked about a great many things. One of them for quite a while. Relationships. We are all single and it can be a stuggle. One of the girls was feeling rather hopeless in the area of dating. Once you get out into the 'real world' it is hard to find an on fire christian guy as a friend let a lone a life long companion. I know I just graduated, but i had a hard time finding one when i was here before college, that is why i never dated and I have friends who are in their 30s who have yet to get married, even though it is a strong desire they are not willing to settle. They are awesome women of faith.
Another of the girls, the oldest and wisest of the group tried to be encouraging to us. Reinforcing the facts we already know: It is better to be content in singleness than misrable in a relationship that we're stuck in. God loves us. We need first to be content with God before we can ever hope to have a relationship that gloifies HIm. If we do choose to marry someday it has to be the man God chose for us, not a man we choose bc we are afraid to grow old alone.
The 3rd girl broke in a shared how God has been speaking to her on the topic of relationships. God pretty much showed her that He wanted to be the One and only in her life. She would run to other people with her joys, fears, heartaches, etc. and leave Him out completely. How do you thing that makes Him feel. The God that creatted us and longs to be in our lives, an intricate part of our lives. Running to other people was only creating a void between her and Him a void He wants to fill.
Is it true, Is God really ALL you need or are you looking for love in all the wrong places?
I have been struggling a lot the past 2 months with just wanting a friend here with me all the time. Like in college i could just run down the hall or walk 5 min to a friends room and there i could talk and hang out. Yeah i spent my time with God, we had our time together and i know He was hangin out with us too. But I am so people focused I would run to someone and pray with them or just hang with them, bc i knew i was loved. I amnot saying it is bad to be a people person, i will be one my whole life. I love people, i can't help it. and I am not saying it is wrong to hang with people when your feeling out of it or need to talk, the big question is, Is God the one you run to or run from? I never really saw it as running from God when I was running to other people. But the more I look at it... God is either ALL you need or not enough.
I know God has always been ALL I ever needed, but i haven't been treating our relationship in such a way. When your single you have a relationship that is solely focused on God and His will. But once you get married your focus is split between God and your significant other and then if you have children it is divided even more. I am not saying marriage is a bad thing, not by any means. I have the desire to get married and have children (a lot of them) some day. But I am training my self to be content now, until God brings my prince to me. I have been gurading my heart so long, i don't know how to let go. I guess all that will come all with time, if the needs comes. Or maybe i need to hand it over to God so He can protect it. Less work for me andI know its being taken care of...

these are some verses that are encouraging to me:

An unmarried woman is concerned about the Lord's affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. 1 Cor. 7:34

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Proverbs 4:23

Don't let anyone think less of you because you are young. Be an example to all believers in what you teach, in the way you live, in your love, your faith, and your purity. 1 Timothy 4:12

By the grace of God I am who I am. 1Cor. 15:10

The eldest and wisest of the girls also pointed out that we don't know what the future holds or how long that will even be. We are not guarenteed a next year or a next week or even a tomorrow. I could die or Jesus could come back, who knows? There is no need in worrying about the future because we don't know what it holds... only God knows which is all the more reason to place ALL our faith in Him and live each day as it were our last. Live each day with as much passion for Christ as we can muster. I used to think this way... Thanks for bringing me back.

Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your lone is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice, Here's my life

Have to die each day to ourselfs so we can live more fully for God.

Psalms 25:4-5
Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;
guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.

Psalms 139:23-24
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting

I long to know You and be lily white for You, continue to draw me closer to You, everyday... every moment.