Get rid of the pedestal

The past few months have been super crazy and the next few weeks... well, I'm taking it one day at a time. I have, and still have problems understanding that I can not help everyone in every situation. I like to be there for people and help out whenever it is possible. There are people, however, who have pulled away from me completely and it hurts. I am learning to let go(it can be a slow process). But what hurts even more are the people who pretend that they still care, but run from me and refuse what I have to offer. You know the people who don’t care about you until they need you for something. Or they are afraid of what I think of them, they are paranoid of how the world view of them. I have never thought of myself as a judgmental person, I try really hard not to be. I love listening to people because I love learning about them, their history, what God has done and continues to do for/through/in them and knowing the wonderful person that God has blessed me with at that moment. But I have found out recently that I am being placed up on a pedestal and that is why I am being ostracized. They are afraid of talking to me because I am on some higher level of ... whatever. THIS IS A BUNCH OF CRAP! OK people lets get one thing straight! I HATE PEDISTALS, SO DON”T PUT ME UP ON ONE!!! I am no where near perfect, I don't want to be, I find pleasure in lifes imperfections(thats another entry altogether). I am no better than anyone else… I’m just like every other person on the face of the planet: I have struggles, I have Joy, I have doubts, I have beliefs, I have been abandoned, I have been loved and I have lost many more times than I have won. I am a sinner saved by grace, and that is all I can ever hope to be.

"Don't Look At Me"

Don't look at me if you're looking for perfection
Don't look at me I will only let you down
I'll do my best to point you in the right directon
But don't look at me
No, no, no
Don't look at me, look at Him

Sometimes I have a fear
That you will see a mirror
And get the thought that it's the main attraction
But all that you detect
Is just what I reflect
Of the object of my own affection

I'll lead you to the One I found
He'll give you everything you need

Don't look at me if you're looking for perfection
Don't look at me I will only let you down
I'll do my best to point you in the right direction
But dont' look at me
No, no, no
Dont' look at me, look at Him

It's understandable to want a hero
But people can't meet all your expectations
Still some can teach you things about the love He brings
Just know the source of life is in the Savior

I'll lead you to the One I found
He'll give you everything you need

Don't look at me if you're looking for perfection
Don't look at me I will only let you down
I'll do my best to point you in the right direction
But don't look at me
No,no, no
Don't look at me, look at Him

He's the One who lived a perfect life
He's the One who always gets it right
He's the One and only guiding light, Ohh, yeah
He is everthing you want to be
He's the answer to your every need
If you follow Him then you will se He's like no other

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh yeah

ll do my best to point you in the right direction
But don't look at me
No, no, no
Don't look at me Oh, dont look at me
I'll only let you down
I'll do my best to point you in the right direction
no no no no no oh oh look at Him
yeah, yeah

~Stacie Orrico