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This week was a blast. I got to road trip it up to clarion and stay with some friends. I love all my Clarion peeps. Hey, I just love saying that i have peeps. It was like a breath of fresh air. And I got to see DNA in concert... ON MY BIRTHDAY!!! The best place to be on your birthday is a DNA concert! And Bekey (Bao Li) became a part of OUR family! I fould that out on my birthday as well, how amazing! It has just been a blast!
When i got back to clarion from the concert, which took a while i sat over at becht waiting for JF to let out. While I was there I prayed and wrote a poem, which I am goign to publish here. I have never published any of my poetry before, so we'll see. Gretchen really helped me realize that its ok not to know what you want to do with your life, as long as you are actively waiting for the next step in Gods will. I am trying to be patient. Maybe Ben is right... Should I move to Michigan or perhaps we'll end up in China together?!?! who knows, only God.


From the Heart

These tears they flow up
as frusterations build up
ANGRY with myself
why can't I try harder
to be a better person
to be more intentional
more like Jesus
I need to do more for Jesus
I am so self centered
I am SO broken

I am falling down
face on the ground
humbly calling out
begging You
Forgive me!
please

Sweet Jesus please
I ask of Thee
to take away
this sinful way
and all this shame
thats made its home inside of me

All I need is You
Sweet Jesus
All I want is to
be wrapped up tightly
in Your arms
Loving you forever

I love you Savior
I know that I don't show it
I'm such a failure
Can't help but blow it

And yet You love me
as I fail
You pick me up
brush me off
and encourage me to try again
I don't understand Your love
But i do appreciate it
i don't always accept it
i can't understand You
But I love You too

This life is Yours
I die again today
And yet I live
I give it to You
This life I'm trapped in
I pray
Your Will be done
Your Kingdom come
This life is Yours
the path has been charted
lead me
guide me

I sing praises to You
all day
every day
I lift my voice
as I rejoice
my desire is to be with You
bring me always closer to You

the battle has been won


I know its kind of long... probably not that good, it could probably be 2 different poems... hm, but it is from the heart...

Thank You Jesus for loving me even though i am a failure, even though my life is very uneventful and i don't feel i am doing much for Your kingdom. You love me always. It is hard for me to grasp that fact.
Thank You.
You are my life line, the reason I live.