Feeling Small

He has a way of making me feel so small
Side note: Here is a little inside information about me and my pet peeves. It urks me to no end when someone or multiple people feel like they have the right, ability, knowledge, whatever to tell me How I feel, what I think and/or how much or little i care about something/someone. It usually just goes to show how little you know me.
I went to my sisters tonight, for other reasons, but we got on the subject of how he reinforces the fact that i am and forever will be a scew up. It is not something I can escape. I have gotten toin the habit of just walking away when he starts to yell, i see no point in yelling back. It just makes us both look like idiots. Why can't i get up the nerve to tell him how I feel? That his type of 'help or 'criticism' is not useful for me. When I saw him today he pretended nothing happened, but it was still bothering me. I don't think it would be so bad if it didn't happen once a week, but its wearing me down. *sigh*
My sister told me to get mad. Not to let him make me feel worthless, but to focus my energy and use it to get stuff done, exercise, research, etc. It sounds construtive. And there are certain times when i can do that, focus my energies, butit is hard with him. It hurts... a lot.
Waiting for discernment

i wrote a poem about this once, i wonder if i can dig it up... i shall try and if i do i'll type it out later