nautical nonsense

mostly just nonsense...

... (deep breath) ...

... the past few wks have been a bit tense for me, not sure why. i am having trouble putting my finger on any one thing... maybe its just a bunch of little things...

...i still view years in school years, instead of from jan to dec. i am excited to see what this year holds, so many changes. this time last year i was in china! hard to believe.

... i am very excited to be going to a concert on my birthday, again this year. Kyle and E-dogg and i am sure some other groups are preforming at clarion. I am so there!

... i am going back to school for massage which is extremely exciting for me.

... i have a few ideas on how to get more involved in the church i am going to... hoping to start up a young womans group. i have a heart to help women see the beauty inside themselves... i know i stuggle with it a great deal myself at times, but i know God could work through that weakness to shine on other women and help them. i just don't know how i am going to do that just yet. (Lord, i am leavin the how up to you)

... not much is happening in the next month... ryan is comin home from china!!! can't wait to talk with him! and i know i am getting old and all but i am excited to visit good 'ol clarion and meet the freshmen and spend time with the sr. class this year. it is really interesting to watch things change over the years. i it crazy to see the difference from my freshman year to the changes i already see in this up coming year.

...there is a prayer walk friday night and saturday morning and steve planned an off the floor event saturday during the day. i am not sure which i am going to, i had planned on the prayer walk so i could meet more people in the church, but i feel obligated to go to the off the floor thing... i guess we'll see what happens. there is a concert thing in oakmont saturday night as well. so my wkend is pretty full. and next wkend the fam is going to a cabin in the woods somewhere... that should be fun, 1st family vacation since 6th grade! and the saturday after that FUEL is going splunking!!! i am so excited! i have wandered around in caves before, but from what i can tell we are going off the beaten path and roaming the depths (13 stories down!) of the cave! i am excited, did i already say that?!?!
Plus Zach may come and splunk with us! I am excited to get to know him better, he seems like a fun guy.

... so i do have a few little things going on, but the next big thing i am looking forward to is my birthday! i do not usually do anything big, but i enjoy celebrating with a few close friends.

... lately i have felt very pressured... i am not sure why, but my muscles are very tense and i am very unfocused. i don't like the way it makes me feel, but i am not sure how to stop it...

...God has been teaching me some pretty intense stuff, for me atleast, so that may have something to do with it. I love how God works, most of the time.... its hard stuff and i am not sure how to explain it all, so for now we'll just leave it at that, if you would like to talk to me about it though you know where to find me.

... i am totally aware that life may not turn out the way i plan, not that i have much of a plan, but i have decided to make a list of things i would like to accomplish throughout my life... this should be interesting.

... if you couldn't already tell i am kind of scattered today i thought i would state that here. (check)

... i hope you are all having a wonderful summer! i would love to hang out with you if your up for it! still a little over a month to go!

alright well i am out... i have to finish up my papers for school.


P.S. WING NIGHT tues july 25th at the LUBE! be there!