matters i know nothing of

troubled


discontent



whats wrong with me?
i keep pushing away
i feel lonely

i am not alone

but i am afraid of you
not alone
don't get me wrong
Christ is here
He's standing strong

I know because i can feel His presence
always there
guiding me
comforting me

but fear rises still
up through me
afraid
of what?
i don't know
do i dare ask

i
am
willing

willing to take the steps i need to take
but no further than i must go

frightened
of the future
of
what role you play

how can i
be of assistance
pushing you closer to your dream
without pushing you further away

you see,
I am safe
just me and God
I know He will not hurt me
and
when I hurt Him
and i know I do often
I know His grace
I know His mercy
I know His love
I know his forgiveness
for me

it is insane
but
its real

why would anyone love me?
how could anyone love me?

All i know is Jesus does
genuinly loves me
He created me to love me
and so I might love Him

adding you into the picture

is hard to imagine

its not safe
i will hurt you
i don't want to hurt you ever

its just that
it inevitable
its what i do

i don't want to

so i sit here aching
wishing i was more than what i am
while being content with all i am at the same time

i don't understand me
no one does, well
maybe One

all i know is
you deserve the best
and i, sir, am nothing close
i am
HOPELESSLY
flawed

my prayers go with you
wherever Our Father takes you
as well as my encourage ment and support

You are an amazing person
I know He has BIG plans
and will lead you to do GREAT things


I love you!


i'm sorry