not so bad

Got an interview for tuesday!!! I got a job offer yesterday, but i didn't take it... am i nutz? should I just take what I can get? sigh.
I figured out why I have been so bummy lately... VICTOR!!! I didn't realize he was due for a visit, but he's here. now that I know I am in better spirits. I also got my china pictures in a scrapbook, not totally finished, i have some final touches to put on it, but i need to go for suppies. It is looking very nice though. I am happy with it and now i have something to take to the China dinner tonight to show.
I am actually excited about this china dinner thing. I get to put on my ne Tibetan dress and show pictures and tell people about china and my friends their. In some ways it feels like a dream, but in others it feel all to real.
o my i gots to get goin...
till next time folks

Can I do anything????

i know i have only been job hunting for a week, but I have found that I am pretty much useless...
whats a girl to do?

dazed and confused

job huntng is interesting. I hate it. I got offered a job to be the manager of a store for G&M Marketing Corp. (www.gandmmarketingcorp.com) I don't want to lock myself in somewhere. Especially if I don't know what i am getting myself into, its a BIG responsibility and it would lock me in for a long career. I am not looking for a career right now, i can see myself doing a great many things. Plus I am being told I shouldn't trust the company just because they are small. I get the feeling It is being hinted to me that I can't do it. what a way to build people up. Push them to do something, then when they finally reach the end smack 'em down and crush their self esteem. Not that I had much to begin with. (sigh) What am I to do with my life? I always imagined being married by now, maybe having a small side job till i had kids then being a full time house wife and getting involved in the PTA or being a girl scout troup leader, teaching sunday school and leading a small group for young women. That dream is in the can. There is no husband, boyfriend... potential dating circumstance at all in sight in the near future or in the long run. I feel beat down and deflated... all I want is a hug, some one to pray with... no one is around. gotta deal with it myself... as usual.
sorry this is a sort of depressing entry... i better cheer up b4, well i just better cheer up.

[x]

ok i know i should prob write about my trip, but i am still jet lagged and trying to figure out where to start. In a few days I will write you a nice long article, for now i will do this survey b/c i got it 6 times since i was away so it must be some sort of imprtant.... i am not sure where they came up with some of these and i like to comment so after some of them i will leave a ~~ which means that is my comment.
here it goes:

[x] I am a cuddler. ~~most people wouldn't know that, but i am.
[ ] I am an okay dancer. ~~this is a scary sight
[ ] I am a morning person. ~~i am usually pleasent in the morning, but it takes me a while to wake up.... latly i have been getting up @ 5am and 7am because of the time change.
[ ] I am a perfectionist.
[ ] I am an only child.
[ ] I am Catholic.
[x] I am currently in my pajamas. ~~ :oD
[ ] I am currently pregnant.
[x] I am currently single. ~~ i hope not for long
[ ] I am currently suffering from a breaking heart.
[ ] I am okay at styling other people's hair.
[ ] I am left handed.
[ ] I am married.
[ ] I am obsessed with the internet.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I am very shy around the opposite sex at first. ~~ even though most people might not believe it, i am sometimes, especially if i don't know them.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I can be paranoid at times.
[ ] I currently have a crush on someone.
[ ] I currently regret something that I have done/am doing.
[ ] When i get mad I curse frequently.
[x] I don't hate anyone. ~ it don't think it is possible for me to hate anyone.
[x] I enjoy country music. ~~ i enjoy most music, except screaming music and anything that is very negative.
[x] I enjoy jazz music.
[x] I enjoy smoothies.
[x] I enjoy talking on the phone. ~~i have a lot of friends all over the place, and since i can not be with them the phone is the next best thing.
[ ] I have a car.
[ ] I have a mobile phone.
[ ] I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
[x] I have a hidden talent. ~~ its a secret, hence the 'hidden' part of the talent
[x] I have a lot to learn. ~~ boy o boy do i
[ ] I have a pet.
[ ] I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
[x] I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" guy. ~~no comment
[ ] I have all my (real) grandparents, none of them have died.
[x] I have at least one brother and/or sister. ~~there is 4 of us in all... unless you count the extended family... then i have millions. (yay for bekey!)
[x] I have been to another country. ~~just got back from CHINA!
[ ] I have been to Europe. ~~ i want to go to Italy someday
[x] I have been told that I am very smart. ~~some people are pathological liers
[ ] I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
[ ] I have/had broken a bone.
[ ] I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
[x] I have changed a diaper. ~~ many in the name of babysitting
[x] I have changed a lot over the past year. ~~ i think so, my frined can tell you better
[x] I have done something illegal. ~~ i'm a speeder :o(
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have had major/minor surgery
[ ] I have had my hair cut within the last week.
[ ] I have had the cops called on me.
[ ] I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
[ ] I have mood swings.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. ~~sigh
[x] I have rejected someone before.
[x] I have seen The Lord of the Rings trilogy. ~~tried to watch it all in one day once... whoa too much for me.
[ ] I have seen the television show The O.C.
[ ] I have tried a drug that is illegal
[x] I have watched the television show Spongebob Squarepants. ~~i was in emily's SG @ one point.
[x]I like Shakespeare.
[x] I love to cook. ~~anything... cooking makes me smile. oh, and baking... :oD
[x] I like to sing. ~~although, i am not good and i never remember all the words... i do it for enjoyment. Make a joyful noise!
[ ]I love Michael Jackson.
[x] I love my friends. ~~duh
[x] I love sleeping.
[ ] I love to play computer games.
[ ] I love to shop.
[x] I miss someone right now. ~~very much :*(
[x] I own 100 CDs or more.
[ ] I own and use a library card.
[ ] I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream. ~~its not mainstream in china... does that count???
[x] I read books for pleasure.
[x] I shave my legs.
[ ] I sleep a lot during the day.
[ ] I strongly dislike math.
[ ] I think Britney Spears is pretty.
[ ] I was born in a country other than the US.
[ ] I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
[x] I will try anything once. ~~just about
[ ] I work at a job that i enjoy ~~i need to find one b4 i can answer this one
[ ] I would classify myself as ghetto.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] i can name all 7 dwarfs from Snow White
[ ]I am currently wearing socks.
[ ] I Hate Summer
[ ] I am tired. ~~surprisingly no
[x]I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt ~~i am not very good, i also like to write

I hope this was entertaing for you all. Maybe some time this we i will write something of interest... then again maybe not.