Big Observations from a little girl

I found this story in my email and thought it was cute:

One rainy afternoon I was driving along one of the main streets Of town, taking those extra precautions necessary when the Roads are wet and slick. Suddenly, my daughter, Aspen, Spoke up from her relaxed position in her seat.

"Dad, I'm Thinking of something."

This announcement usually meant she had been pondering some Fact for a while, and was now ready to expound all That her six-year-old mind had discovered. I was eager to hear.

"What are you thinking?" I asked.

"The rain!" she began, "is like sin, and the windshield Wipers are like God wiping our sins away."

After the chill bumps raced up my arms I was able to respond.

"That's really good, Aspen."

Then my curiosity broke in. How far would this little girl take This revelation? So I asked...

"Do you notice how the rain Keeps on coming? What does that tell you?"

Aspen didn't hesitate one moment with her answer:

"We keep on sinning, and God just keeps on forgiving us."

I will always remember this whenever I turn my wipers on.

Written by me

Frusteration!
.
He will never trust me
I am coming to terms with this fact
no trust = no love
.
as long as I know
that i am not doing wrong
that is all i can do
.
I choose how i feel
about myself
.
I will
No longer let him
dictate how i feel
I am free!
.
He chooses to not trust
which shows me
in my deepest parts
HE chooses to not love
.
I will honor him while i am here
i will respect what he says
and his rules
but i will not take to heart
the hurtful things he says
.
And once i leave
I am gone
I am NOT coming back
He is setting our relationship up
for failure
i can not save it myself
and i am tired of trying
.
Lord, grant me stength
grant me knowledge and peace
i am reasting in your arms
So thankful for the blessings
you so generously give me
i am undeserving
but accept that you do love me
thank you

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How does it feel to love?

to be loved?

in a world that is beaten down all around you

with negativity

at all times?

depressing

hopeless

sad

.

I have to make decisions

how i am going to feel

how i wil let things affect me

how i will live my life

.

I choose to find joy

I choose to let go of all the

negative, condisending, angry

words, images, people

.

I can be joyful

when negative foces

are pounding down around me

.

If he chooses to not understand

If he doesn't care to try

there is nothing i can do

until he opens up his narrow mind

.

I am finally realizing

He does not care to know me

after 'knowing' me

for 24 years

seeing me chage

watching my growth

he still does not know who i am

and i can plainly see

he does not care to get to know me

.

my respect for him dwindles

my hope for his love fades

i no longer care what he thinks

bc i know he does not care to know the truth

i have been jaded

for the last time

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Why do I let him

have such a hold on me

i'm making a clean cut

i'm gone

outta here

gotta get away

.

my family is deteriorating

into nothing

bc it takes trust and love

to keep it alive

and that has been lost

so

I have found what i need elsewhere

I find trust and love in strangers

in friends

who become my family

these are the people i long to be with

.

people who encourage

who are excited about me

and excited for me

people who are not afraid to learn

and grow

.

letting go

letting go

letting go

of the past

of what once was

and will be no more

.

once i am gone i am gone for good

Lord, help to free me from this torture

Help me to be set free

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and the sad thing is i will always come back. i will never be able to turn my back completely.

But i am learning to be strong, that i do have worth and i can stand up for myself. I do deserve to love and be loved and i am ready to fight for it.

gone are the dark days!

So Sweet...

i got a call from someone i talked to 2 months ago. they remembered me and that my birthday was in september. i have spoken to this person once in my life on the phone and they rememebred me. i can't help but smile. thats the sweetest thing.
today has been a depressing day. i am not sure why. i am upset that i can not lose weight no matter how i try. i am frusterated with myself and with trying to lose weight. i want to so bad but every effort fails. i really feel like crap today. but i do feel a smidg better that someone would remember me from a phone call... that amazes me.
i don't know what else to do about my weight... i am reading this book on fasting and think after i finish the book i will try that... i mean if i gain weight while i am not eating i know there is something terribly wrong with me. we'll see. i feel hopeless, but surprisingly upbeat. yeah, figure that one out.

Career Personality Test - What Type of Person Are You At Work?

So i took a this test and here is what i found out...

"Krista, your career personality type is ENTP That means that based on the standard measure of personality traits, brainstorming and creating new concepts is one of your strengths. You are an out-of-the-box thinker and come up with great ideas. You are one of those people who absorb seemingly disparate pieces of information and turn them into one brilliant and coherent thought or solution. In other words, you see connections between ideas where others cannot. Your inquisitive nature has helped you create some big, trendsetting ideas With your excellent communication skills, you seek to make connections with other people and enrich their lives with your innovative thinking. On top of it, you are a wonderful negotiator and can close deals with best of them.The reason employers and recruiters might be on the lookout for you is that only about 4-6% of the U.S. population shares the unique characteristics of your personality type. Research shows that businesses succeed when employers create a good balance of personality types in the office. And since only 4-6% of the U.S. population shares your type, that means employers are looking for you. But, to truly show employers what you have to offer, you need to understand a little more about traits that make up your type. "

and then there was a chance for me to buy the rest... what ev.

i do think i am in the wrong profession though... ah!

i got a chocolate bar & ... It's a girl!

I was given oe of those Hershey's bars the read ' It's a herSHEy's' ... cute way for someone to say they have an angelic little baby girl.

On October 31st at 3:06am Braelynn Julienne Davidson became the newest addition to the family. Arriving 6lb 14oz and 19 inches long at Magee Women’s Hospital in Oakland to the proud parents Ryan & Renae Davidson.

Brealynn is SO beautiful and precious. I am so excited about having a new miniature member of the family!

(once i learn how to get pictures off my phone i will upload pictures of our little angel.)